I just realised...

I just notice that i am afraid to grow up, to move on, forward, there, aya, you see, ahead!
pienso,
envidiare las mujeres independientes cuando tenga que cambiar pañales?
tomare vino cuando se me antoje o tendre alguien recordandome de estructura y condicion?
fumare mota? entrare en mis lindo vestidos, podre usar tacos? se me correra la pintura con el calor por que traspirare mas ?
tendre miedo?

really??????? really
or i will be happy, beautifull, conquistadora del universo sin mas no poder, enamorada de verdad, tranquila, be myself, cooking amazing dinners, drinking divine wine, having loong interesting conversations, teaching, happy, loyal, on top, together, a swiming pool?

for sure plants, eso si for sure sure i see them there, I won't give up plants, or who i am, who it is what makes me, who is this, me, who adores you and will be fine, who likes to enjoy life to the max, to smile and to cry but more then ever prefers to laugh together or of eachothers.
who makes time for living and does what makes her happy, who respects and is honest.

as i turn in my bed, roll on and on and on, my heart goes bom bom bom, fast,
i think again why i'm afraid.

JUMP!